A year ago, I had a baby. It wasn’t a normal baby. It had no head nor heart but it came from my womb. It came out two years after I heard him kick – he was a tough one. Hours after my baby came out, it died. The doctors cut him; I didn’t even get to see him. I wanted to but they wouldn’t let me. I begged but they insisted it was for the best. They were quite dramatic about it.
I didn’t cry for my baby and frankly, I was happy to have him gone. It brought me nothing but pain and suffering. To grow, it sucked up my blood and took up all the space in my belly. Yes, that’s what babies do, but this one was vicious. With this, I couldn’t even be excited about missing my period because I never did. On the contrary, as big it grew, the more blood I shed monthly. Prior to its delivery, my period lasted 12-18 days, and with those days came daily torture and anxiety. Anxiety from thinking I had lost my child because my period was plagued with the heaviest of blood clots (perhaps that’s how it shed its heart and head leaving only its body for me for delivery). Every month it passed bits of itself through my vaginal canal as if practicing for the time it would come.
Contractions as you may have imagined were as complicated as they come. In fact, for me, contractions were the first symptom that I was carrying something. The pain would start 5-7 days before my period and the same time after; this calculating nut head of a baby. Goes without saying that this pain was directly proportional to the increase of the baby’s size.
Fast- forward, over a year later, here I am mulling over what would have been if I didn’t deliver it. I had fibroids removed in February 2019 and regrets? There were none! I realize how little is shared about fibroids especially amongst young women. Fibroids are strange and should be talked about often.
In this blog, I bare it all and share with you my journey with carrying a headless baby that grew to the size of a 6month old fetus. From diagnosis to treatment to post-op experiences. I hope my experience inspires many women especially young women to take uterine health seriously. Let’s go!